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Friday, May 22, 2009
If only the broken is easily fixed @ 11:41 PM

Like, finally exams are over. But the big exams are not over yet, so i still cant totally shut down my mind. What the hell, i'm having damn bad headache now. I know i should rest, but i just don't feel like it. I also just got back my results. I won't elaborate more about that. Only that i'm disappointed in myself. Study harder! But for now, i just wanna relax. Relax from everything.

Life have been so full of different of emotions, that i don't have any right words to describe how i actually feel now. I feel happy, sad, disappointed, angry, pissed, hurt. I could make a list of how i feel but thats just basically how i felt. Sigh, i have so much to say, but i just can't simply put it in words. I feel like changing blog skin, ha ha, random much.

Holidays are coming soon but yet i still haven't planned on any outings. I just don't feel any excitement for the holidays. My feelings towards holidays are just neutral. The only thing i look forward for holidays is, sleeping. Ha ha. Sometimes, i just feel like staying in bed the whole day and just forget about everything for a day. Wouldn't that be nice? But too bad, i can't. Ha ha. I think mum is making cookie tomorrow. She is the baking mood. Ha ha.

The past few days, or during the exam week, i usually spend my time at Sengkang CC, studying there. Now that exam's are over, i spend time more at the library. Oh, speaking of library, i remembered about the books i borrowed. Hmm, should read them soon. Anyway, i wanna write my feelings down(try not to ask anything about it).

I may look okay, i may look fine, i may look happy. I will go along with everything without any objections. I will smile even though i feel so mad, so pissed,so hurt. False smiles forced by pure Instinct. I've been breathing in lies like smoke. I gave chances but the chances were taken advantage. Sometimes i wonder, how i go through a day looking so happy on the outside, when deep down i'm so damn ____.

Restless and confused, also waiting for the news. Not knowing where to turn, or where to go. Not liking the situation, but living in it for too long. And try being the person who always have to give in. Try being the one who always have to speak up so that things will go back to the way it is. Sometimes, i feel sick and tired of everything, just wanting to give up. But then again, i can't. I can't be selfish, can i.

On the other hand, what do you do when you miss someone so badly but you do not have the guts to say it to them? Sigh. Cause the moment, I'm lonely and I'm tired, I start missing you, alot.

Sigh, it really sucks to hold everything back, doesn't it?.

Why keep pretending
When there’s no one left to fool?

P▲PERHE▲RTS
Umairazxz

Seventeen;
I can smile and frown at the same time, can you?















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